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CAN~
可以~
终于回到这个台上了
我一直梦寐以求的台上
感谢仁宏大哥给予这个机会
我的梦想就此实现了一半

尽管当天状况连连
破音走音全都来找我
但我还是很爱唱歌
这是一个不变的事实
感恩仁宏能给我机会

其实当天的表现真的差到不能再有~
唱到迷失，紧张失场，破音走音什么都有
不过对唱歌的这份热爱始终在心里燃烧着
我不懂技巧
但每一次的演唱我却是真的很用心去唱
也希望听众能够听出那诚恳 并无修饰的诚恳
尽管走音破音 ， 但是我对唱歌的意志并不灭
尽管台下只剩一个听众， 或更本没人认同我的声音
我还是会尽我所能的唱
只为抒发心声 成为这都会城市里头的声音
真的 能够驻唱我已经很开心了 并不是想成为什么歌星

若能真正成为驻唱歌手
这即将是我人生里头
我毫无后悔之意的选择与决定

驻唱可是我一直梦寐的说真的
但有谁不希望自己的演唱
能得到别人的肯定？
数量并不需要很多
只要有人肯定就是了
然而没自信的心理一直油然而生
有时候真的悔恨着自己的胆小
即使在少数人面前表演 还是会一样抖到不行
要知道会唱歌的人实在是太多了
当你的歌声传入别人的耳中
别人怎样看你 这已经是很难控制当中
再加上机缘巧合
才能有机会在别人面前表演
路是艰辛
梦想有时候好像就在眼前
但不小心可能就丢失了

驻唱的路原本是顺畅的
后来却又变卦了
明天以后不知是否还有机会再上台唱
毕竟我还是新手代班
机会是需要别人给予我才能拿的
但是很希望能得到同行的体谅
这是我特别特别需要的
因为作为一个新手来的说
经验是非常需要的
没有老手的提携 有时候路真的会难走很多
背后或许也会有无数的箭在狂射
老手经历过的 我也在经历着吧？
但无论如何 我还是会尽力去利用每一次机会的来临
不再表现出胆怯 掩饰它 是我第一件要力行的事
珍惜每一次的机会
后来的后来 或许真的稳稳当当成为了驻唱歌手
但我会记住这段挣扎的路程
并不是特地要证明些什么
只希望自己有一天能稳健 轻松
去诠释自己的声音 在任何的台上
就是这样的唱着 没有害怕

Scene

I hope you can also see the wind blow and shake the branches
on a afternoon like this

这是个狂风摇摆树木的日子，希望在你读到这封信的时候，
也是这样一个狂风足以摇摆树木的下午






so that what I saw...
I hope you can see it too

所以希望我看到的风景，你也能看到





The window I stood by-you stand by
the bed I laid on-you lie on it
the books I read-if you read them

如果你能站在我曾伫立过的窗前，
躺在我曾躺过的床上，
读着我曾读过的书的话，

Even like that-if we can be together
if it is that much-let's say we are together
if it is that much- like other dating couples
-let's say we are happy

即使是用这样的方式让我们在一起的话，
那么，就算是我们在一起了。
那么，我们就算是像其他恋人一样幸福了。

Dream

"你的梦境里为什么有那么多险恶?"


“因为你在我的梦里”





"和我在一起，即使在梦里，
也不幸福吗？"






"即使是这样，也一样来吧。
明天也是，后天也是..."

Alice in the wonderland

给洙元：

曾经是爱丽丝的你问过我，路该怎麼走？
但是你不知道的是，即使告诉你：
『只要一直走下去，你就会到达某个地方。』的我，
也是有如迷途羔羊的惶惶不安。
面对爱情的不知所措，是我差一点错失了我们的缘份。
谢谢你走向我，即使路途险恶也没有放弃。但是现在，我要放弃你了。

看到天边的那颗流星了吗？
你，太美好。美好的有如童话，而美好的事物
总是消失的很快。跟流星一样。

还记得你曾经说过我不是灰姑娘，
而是人鱼公主的事吗？
没有一个女人会为注定失败的爱情而努力，
拒绝成为人鱼公主，是我对自己的保护。
在没有人保护我的13年里，成为仙人掌是我保护自己的唯一出路。
但是你没有被我需张声势的硬刺吓跑，
是你太勇敢，还是在你面前的我太无措？

谢谢你这样不顾一切的爱过我。

原来这世上魔幻真的存在，感谢所有让我爱上你的一切。
我也曾经试著捍卫我们的爱情，但是如果我的存在，对你是一种伤害，
那麼希望上帝让我永远不要醒来。

让我成为你的人鱼公主。
爱过，然后像泡沫一样，安安静静的离开。

最后...请不要记得我...我爱你。

人鱼公主提着的剑开鞘了
但就在下一刻，
人鱼公主将剑扔向滚滚大海 剑一落海，
海浪瞬间闪出红光 太阳从海平面升起
人鱼公主用逐渐模糊的视眼
纵身跃进茫茫大海
从此人鱼公主化作泡沫消失了。。。

That woman

A woman loves you.
有个女人正爱着你

The woman loves you wholeheartedly.
那个女人认真的爱着你

She follows you around like a shadow every day
她每日如同影子般的追随着你 .

She smiles but is actually crying.
那个女人 笑着 却也哭着

How much longer do I just have to gaze at you, alone.
究竟还得独自 注视着你多久

This love that came like wind,
这像风一般飘渺不定的爱情

This love that is like beggar,
乞丐般的爱情

If I continue this way, will you love me?
还得持续多久 你才能爱我

Just come a little nearer
只要稍稍走近你

just a little bit.
只要靠近你一步

Please don’t step back
就会后退两步的你

I, the one who loves you,
这样爱着你的我

is still next to you.
现在就在你的身旁

That woman is crying.
那个女人哭泣着

That woman is cautious
那个女人非常的小心

So she learnt how to smile
所以现在正在学习笑着的方法

Her heart is so full of tear,
她的心总是在哭泣

She can't even share her story with her best friend
连和好朋友都不能倾诉的话语太多了

That's why, that woman loved you
所以 那个女人正爱着你

Cause you were so like her
another fool.
这样的傻瓜

yet another fool
因为是这样的傻瓜

Can't you give me a hug before you leave me?
所以可以拥抱我吗 在你离开我之前

I want to be loved, dear.
That's all I wanted
我也想要被爱 亲爱的


She shouts, just in her heart
just in her heart.
每天每天在心里 只能在心里这样的呼唤着你

No one can hear her
but that woman is still next you
那个女人 今天依然在你的身旁

Do you know that
I am that woman?
那个女人就是我 你知道吗

You don't do you?
还是你明明知道却依然如此呢

Because you are just a fool.
不知道的你 真的是个大傻瓜啊

how much
how much longer
Do I have to love you like this
究竟还得独自注视着你多久

This love that is like a fool
这样像傻瓜一般的爱情

This love that is like beggar
乞丐般的爱情
还得持续多久

would you love me?
你才能爱我

That woman, who loves you
is still next you
这样的爱着你的我
现在在你的身旁

yes...no!

Yes or No is a nice movie indeed
inspired me alot~
at least we could know that
LOVE is a matter of the HEART!

isn't matter about the difference of sexuality

distance of ages

or anything else...

is all about your HEART ;D

that's why we couldn't be randomly together with anyone else
except the heart gives permission ;)

有时候

才去马六甲几天而已
就已经拿了我几天的健康
难道真的那么不tahan meh
搞不懂自己身子的状况
在想如此柔弱的身子 与自己爱好到处走的性格
有点背道而驰
想想再多一个星期多就要回去面对压力
就有点退缩的感觉
经过一场水痘战之后
以前从未担心过自己健康问题的我
突然开始担心日后的自己会因健康
而无法应付外来的事物 外来的压力
这些担忧都在健康亮起红灯的时候来临
虽然察觉到自己的身子越来越不好
但是我还是尽力的去保护自己
就好比在马六甲那些日子
我买了一些健康书籍给自己
水果也吃了好多好多
因为即将来临的日子里 我知道还有很多很多未完成的事情
使命终究还是会延续
要让自己变得更好
虽然有时候上天没赋予我一些天生就能拥有的幸运
但当我在羡慕别人拥有幸运的同时
我发觉上天其实也没有给予人人都能拥有 而除了你
既然有些人有 有些人没有
其实 这就证明了 上天其实是公平的
我记得以前有一个朋友望着我笑说：上天是公平的
当下我很想揍他几拳
因为我知道他在挖苦我说：
-我很会唱歌很会读书， 但是我缺乏外在条件-
没错，从小就是这样给别人笑的

所以我时时刻刻
都提醒着自己要做到十全十美
要不就不要做 决定做了就要尽力 且要拿到好成绩
所以别人常会看到我似乎懒懒散散 可是一旦做起来
我是真的尽我所能 但似乎只有真正了解的朋友才能看得出
我这股劲儿~
近几年我的火其实也消得七七八八
以前的我会很尽力的去争取我想要的
但是现在的我反而越来越顺气自然
别人拥有的 我也不想去争取自己那一份
我自己那一份 失去了也不会想要取回
因为我被-变卦-吓得不敢再去期盼了
只想安安份份的做我应该做的事
不去计较争多或争少

我察觉自己变了
但我能做些什么 ?
如果我说 长得越大 看的事情就越复杂
那我们可不可以拒绝长大？
以前会很好胜的
要一切事情都掌控在自己手里
决不能有半分差毫 亦不能在我掌控之外
曾几何时 我也是一个控制狂
但今日 不算看透什么
只是在从多次的胜战 到后来多次的失败
站起来又跌到 跌到后又站起来后
这份麻木 还算得上是麻木吗？

人生还是有很多模糊点
而我也只能靠这些成败事迹
模糊前进。。。摸索

-是时候冲一个凉
兜风。。。医饱肚子去~
爱上这份自由 ;) -

MALACCA lovely trip buahahaha

The journey was started with a lovely ribbon

and worms ==

Seriously I hate the worms so much!
For making the delicious nyonya ketupat
we got to fight with the worms!
there is alot alot but the picta seems blur =p






haha
our malacca so called
" lazy tour guide"
by the way
thanks for guiding us along the trip
love ya

We are hiding in the lubang
and giving many type of gesture
wtf some of the tourist saw our stupid act
they were laughing us
XD

this is yee kei.
a photographer
holding a nikon brand worth 2000 bucks DSLR
wow!

this is chung c mun
she kinda abit ss (syok sendiri)
hahaha!

the sunset in malacca
what a beautiful scene
touching when seeing this
I was thinking to enlarge this picta
aiya so mahuan

me drinking coconut drinks
was having sorethroat that time
coconut drinks does not really help

lalala
we are having dinner at Portugis village
a famous sea food restaurant
the crab was not bad
but it did makes you sorethroat gao gao

sure we having " tan cha " session as well
and most important was BR!!
Baskin Robbin!
love you the most!
Green tea would be my favorite all the time






I met ellyn at san shu gong!
the day after that day was her birthday!
argh! I missed it
so here I am gonna wish her again
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
good news was
she got bf already.
owh so sweet ...shhh =p

having 千层蛋糕 yoooo
delicious enough to brighten up my day
XDDD
feeling so good
but too many people inside the restaurant
kinda noisy and spoiled the high tea mood there

going red house to have some photo shooting session
a very nice historical places
alot people taking photos there
and saw many foreigners =)
handsome foreigners wakakakak
all have a very sharp nose

nicest photo!
the colors the contrast of the pictas
I like this the most
thought I got a super tiring look
but just ignore me XD

church?
it is beautiful
those who like to take picture can come here
a nice view
and you could see the sunset in malacca there

buying necklace for my mum
sis and some friends
but my taste was too good until my mum
wanna grab all the necklace I bought
sad. I should buy more

my super duper big size rice!
siao lang.
I don't know izit the chef admire me or what
this is very the huge size of rice I have ever seen before
I think the amount suits for 3 person?
in the end I can't finish it

whenever eating BR.
photoshooting is a MUST XD

my punya noob face!
hahaha
they said I eat like a child

ss session again
bo bian XD



I bought 3 books and some accessories
arr and one tshirt but I didn't take pictas for all of that
we went Jusco and the very first thing we bought was
BOOKS!
3 books for 24 bucks
damn cheap XD


Due to the fried thingy
now I have got a super duper sexyyyy voice
like angelina jolie~yeah~
I ate quite a lot things there
so after came back from malacca
I push alot of fruits into my mouth
so that constipation won't come and visit me XD


arrr we watched fast and furious 5!
thumbs up for that seriously!
damn yeng!
after you watching you will be very proud of driving manual car
HAHA!
watching movie is always the best activity for spending your time
feels like wanna marry with botak in future
I am so in love with the botak right now


most of the time we were in shopping center
instead of the historical famous places
I was kind regret that I didn't visit the seaside
there is alot of people playing kites there
such a beautiful place that I missed it
ish
nevermind
I had promised ellyn that I will get back to that place soon
backpack would be my choice for the next visiting
quite attracted by the guest house there
some more got live band singing in the night
I like that kind of mood so muchie
going trip alone actually doesn't mean
you are lonely
it is another sort of lifestyle
I do really enjoy while going trip alone
instead of going with a group


errr but frankly I didn't get too much of feeling
through this malacca trip
since my sorethroat had spoiled my mood and everything or what
just bought something that I feel that was needed to give to my friends
but I got to say that Malacca was really a nice place to go
but too bad was I was really too easily feeling tired
owhhhh NO way.
such a weak body ==d

arr really hope to visit the seaside ar!
I want to play kites there
and take a lot of pictas
by the way MALACCA I will be back
soon =p