SANCTUM

FINALLY! I can squeeze out alittlelittle of my time...
to update my blog post yay! HAHA
just finish my lab test and htw lar weyyy...was kinda susah
even I tried my best to fill in all the blank...but HAHA
you know...still left some questions in blank == totally no idea
and I update my blogpost just to share with ya how's my last weekend and my BIRTHDAY PRESENT! yea...present~gonna show off here...
but unlucky was I forgot to bring my pinky mia cable...so got to update 2moro~
nemai...I just wanna recommend a movie today! it was totally awesome!



yea ! SANCTUM ~~
is talk about the world biggest unexplored cave...
an underwater diving team, explorers
dive into the cave and experience a life threatening-crisis in the cave...
they got to seek for the unknown escape route to the sea
it was awesome because I never ever think that would be so terrifying
when in the cave...
everyone is asking me "is there any monster or aliens under the sea?"
NO!!! though it doesn't appear any monster under the cave...
but it was so impressive
since this movie reveal how mean a human will be when death comes to them...
and shows how panic and fear you are when in a narrow...
breathless...food-less, darkness and coldness environment !!!
whats makes me fear was the scene
when one of the explorer stuck in between a narrow cave!
and her oxygen pipe was leak !!
it means...no oxygen GG!!
wweeeee!! horrible~~
try to imagine that you are trapped in a little narrow box...no oxygen is provided...
only darkness there...and wth you can't even move inside the box...o.O
seriously I had nightmare after watching the movie XD
but what I had learn was the spirit of an explorer :
never ever give up to find the way out

and one of my favourite quote in this movie is:
NO GOD in this cave...
we all are just a dust that pass through this cave.

though some of my friend said this movie is too cruel and mean for them...
because the leader of the diving team decide to kill one of his team member
since his team member was injured badly in an accident
and his whole body bone was broken =/
and got to mention that they have no any medicine box beside them
and time is constraint...
so the leader made the decision to kill him and took away his useful equipment...
in order to keep others people survive...
so..hmmm what do you think about him?? cruel...
others team member claim that he doesn't have any right to take away people life
because he is not GOD...and he pop out the answer (my favorite quote)
in my opinion..there isn't about the 'right' issues...
since all the bones are broken...and he is suffering too
so I think he made the best decision...=/
wellll !!! super duper like those adventure moviessssssssssss !!!
I like challenging ! chi gek~~XDDD


hmmm... this few day I took some meat liao...
now eating fish pulak ><><
HELP~~ I don't want take meat anymorez!
I don't want take rubbish anymorezzz!!

^^

I thought she was gone...and left me behind

but I found her. My lovely angel =)))

phewww............ luckily

bibla bibla

gahhhh hate this kind of feeling...
I know I should stop complaining but I just...just what?!
don't know how to say lar wey...kinda bo syok now...DUMB
arr line is lag like hell can't even load google homepage...
nah nah see see how I am gonna die tomoro...
REPORTS are comming ngam ngam ngam eating me ==

still haven't finish my reportS yet...ueeahhhaa start yawning again==
Life is just like this?? huh I wonder
spent my day with reports...doing those meaningless stuff in whole day
and yea I feel lonely...no one quarrel with me...no one choi me today ='(
hmmmm I miss him...ermmm not my ex HAHAHA is another him

after take bath I went to my friend mia hostel to return back her shirt
and hell yea DG bo line...so I just kept waiting outside her house and
wander along the street...suddenly so many couple pop out in front me
and I felf " LOVE IS ALL AROUND " orz
yea I am alone...all the time
sometimes I ask myself why don't you just attach with someone zek!?
since you so afraid of loneliness...
IDK~
btw~what a day...
ngm hoi sam

depressing wth

quite feeling depressed this few days since I have to submit
4 reports in this friday... yiii sommore got lab test and midterm
aikss...I know all the bio students now are facing the same problem
and most probably some of them screaming...crying...doing whatever
in their room to release their stresses! and hell ya kampar is hot like hell...
and I saw naked body swinging around ==
huh...currently I am really not in good mood to write like a poet...
like the previous post. those emo thingy...the spirit in writing...has gone frankly...
bo mood to do anything as well...unless sleeping playing guitar and eating
only can pull me back to the reality now...
reports spent my day...wth...
quite struggle when I decided to spend a little of my time to write this post...
btw I just don't wan't to stress myself to much or else I will burst! LOL

arrr one thing I got to say is CONGRATZ to my beloved form6 friends
who get such a good result in STPM! 4 flat ehhh wao...envious liao XDD
I am happy for them but sad for myself...my cgpa grade T.T gosh!
whenever mention about my result I was like ...
huhhhhhh...don't want to talk about it lia...later lagi depressed..

Our papa jackson fetched us to tesco to buy stuff 2day..
and guess what I bought? yea no wrong..is choc!
CHOC again!! walaoeh I can't control myself ...
and now eating non-stop...almost finish the thing I bought 2day
what a big fat eater me ! hate myself gaogao
got to put myself on diet~ hmmmm but can't blame on me lar wey
now I am a vegetarian...no more taking meat...and I am lack of some vitamins I think
so eat others thingy to replace the vitamin I lost...but I wonder will I become...
fatter and fatter? LOL!!! wonder mummy @@

Yea having crush on someone was feeling good...
but hor this nice nice eh feeling won't last long...
sometimes can bring you pain...
now everyone asking me to find a bf even some of my relatives
met me during cny hor...also ask why don't you find a bf huh?
ceeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhh !!!
I wish to fall in love but I am not able...seriously
LOVE this kind of thingy isn't like the case you choosing a cloth lor
so easy meh...want change jiu change...want buy jiu buy...
but I have to admit that someone came into my life...
but now he left jor == totally disappear...BIG SIGH!
see...it isn't easy to attach one you know...
timing is the most important "ingredient" in LOVE
and I think he already got target as well...sigh!
a question ever pop out in my mind before...
is that possible I become a lesbian ??? LOL!!!
hmmmm...I will think about it if a lesbian tackle me!!
HAHAHA! this is not call despo..
just feeling disappointed to the GUY!
aiks...

arr one last thing...
I am really really misseu guysss bell.pohpoh.sloan.ruru.cayton.
yes cayton you are in the list hahahah new member...
I miss the time we playing guitar at the basketball court
I miss the time you guys making fun there...crap...talking cold jokes ==\
HAHAHHAA!!! by the way...really miss you guys so muchie...
got to hit my pillow now...yea do nothing tonite again!!
YEA!!! I am feeling so 'great'///
aikss...guitly 99. see how I am gonna DIE in thursday night...haha
goodnite world =) with lotsss of love ya...

...

weee
that's hurt eh
=(
emoomomomomomooooomo

七里香。主唱爽一日记

七里香
演唱：Mr.C and Mrs.C

窗外的麻雀 在电线杆上多嘴
你说这一句 很有夏天的感觉
手中的铅笔 在纸上来来回回
我用几行字形容你是我的谁
秋刀鱼的滋味 猫跟你都想了解
初恋的香味就这样被我们寻回
那温暖的阳光 象刚摘的鲜艳草莓
你说你舍不得吃掉这一种感觉
雨下整夜 我的爱溢出就像雨水
院子落叶 跟我的思念厚厚一叠
几句是非 也无法将我的热情冷却
你出现在我诗的每一页
雨下整夜 我的爱溢出就象雨水
窗台蝴蝶 象诗里纷飞的美丽章节
我接着写 把永远爱你写进诗的结尾
你是我唯一想要的了解

雨下整夜 我的爱溢出就象雨水
院子落叶 跟我的思念厚厚一叠
几句是非 也无法将我的热情冷却
你出现在我诗的每一页
那饱满的稻穗 幸福了这个季节
而你的脸颊象田里熟透的蕃茄
你突然对我说
七里香的名字很美
我此刻却只想亲吻你倔强的嘴
雨下整夜 我的爱溢出就象雨水
院子落叶 跟我的思念厚厚一叠
几句是非 也无法将我的热情冷却
你出现在我诗的每一页
整夜 我的爱溢出就象雨水
窗台蝴蝶 象诗里纷飞的美丽章节
我接着写 把永远爱你写进诗的结尾
你是我唯一想要的了解

最近一直在听这首歌
想起那时候第一次去“夹band”的情景
爽到。。。主唱主唱 XD
最不能忘记就是这首歌的 rhythm
drum的pattern好听到。。。没话讲 型！
本人实在要对pohpoh五体投地
全部编排他一手制作 鼓打到相当型
没想到平常看他傻傻酱 玩起音乐是认真到。。。
他给了我甜笑的理由 当听这首歌的时候 =))))
尤其到歌高潮的部分！我笑到合不拢嘴 XDD
还有你看过bell拿电子吉它没？ 酷到！
只差当时我还没有拿bass便弹边唱而已 XDD
放弃表演 是个遗憾 我只能说
这首歌 带给了我一段很好很好很好的回忆
尽管只有那一天 但给我的启发真的很多
同时也“赚”到很多 =))))
想起那一天真的很开心开心 不知你是否也有同感？
再一次感恩感谢

Happy Birthday 217

Seriously I am freaking busy this few days!
It's all about promises I had made to people...
and I couldn't just run away and back to my lovely hometown...
thought I am so eager to celebrate my birthday with my family...
I miss ipoh miss my ibu bapa and friends...=(
I got alot of tasks havent done yet...reports...events...guitar practices...
I am gonna submit 5 report on next week
and I wish to get back to ipoh this saturday so that can watch I love HK
with my best friend but most probably I can't make it...
and I did nothing in this week somemore skip 2 classes =(
feeling so freaking bad...gosh...

I don't even receive any birthday wishes from him ...fb or text...none
and I pass my birthday was like O.O time flies without realizing in heritage hall~
I am seems like just wasting my time over there...I am not complaining others
just feel like myself is such useless...can't help anything there...
everyone singing birthday song for me...credit to bell...
and thanx for the birthday wishes from facebook...sms...haha ..wa so many...
kinda lazy to reply all the wishes from facebook...=p
btw I do really appreciate that XD

但最值得高兴与记载的是
两个弟弟 pohpoh n sloan
给了一个我超大的惊喜
still remember I was sleeping like a pig in the evening
and that stupid sloan keep calling me and wake me up
that time I was kinda angry and pissed off
I hate people wake me up the most! XD
btw I still wake up and answer his call and wtf is
he said he wanna get back his guitar score!
then I feels like really bo syok him and ask him to take later
let me sleep more awhile, but he insisted to come my house and take it back
I was like what the hell...hate him the most that time XD
but then after I opened the gate, I saw he n pohpoh holding a secret recipe cake
I was like O.O woahhhh I am kinda blur that time...without wearing contact lens...
just saw they smiling at me and I was shocked!seriously
the cake with an ice scream scoop on the top...kinda special lol
then after this the house full of our stupid laughters and music...
I bring my guitar n they sang me birthday song and some of my favourite songs...
Like justin bieber mia baby...they knew I love it and they are willing to play for me
TOUCHED!!! because all of the time I sing song to people but seldom receive any songs from u guys...this was my first time...a sincere gift I have never receive in my life...
I still remember the way pohpoh playing the guitar with his funny face expression
and sloan mia serious expression while singing...lol looks damn funny
it's good to be friend with them...

我真的很感恩 可以认识到他们
我会记住你们唱歌弹吉它时候的表情
我会记住记住 remember 99! hahaha

well...actually I am not really emo recently...
just feels like abit stress ...no! not abit~is veryvery stress!!
haiz...what the hell the reportsssss making me crazy all the time!!
and I got no mood to write like a poet XD hahaha
so just zha ba lang mix chinese and english together lar...

and so far I havent make any birthday wishes yet...
no candle birthday cake how to make wishes leh? kinda pity this year lol
arrghhh and those feeling...pls just keep away from me...
all is jus illusion...I don't wanna fall into any trap again...
just wanna be myself...live my life happily without regrets...
and I knew all this kind of illusion are going to end soon hahaha
thats a good thing for me I think =)
well...haiz...midterm test is around the corner liao...
I got to prepare I know...so Cath!!
u got to focus on ur studies!ur guitar! nt others thing~
arrr and I do really hope what I said to u...no offense...
actually most of the time I am just kidding with u...
thought seems like blaming u but actually I am not...
but I knew all will be ended soon hahaha
and I can escape from those trap hehhehe
arrr one thing...don't touch my hair lar wey!!! seriously
I don't want have any interaction with u...nemai...end liao end liao hmmm

lastly I just want to say
I miss my home badly
and happy birthday to you cath =)
wish u become prettier and prettier =p (no pimples)
big improvement in singing n guitar skills XD (sing in station1 again!)
cgpa can get more than last sem !!( 4.0!! am I greedy?) lol
and I will be the only one in his eyes HAHA! attached attached !!!
(well I am still the same~fan jian!)
Law of attraction !come on~~
I do believe in u one~pls don't dissapoint me

Goodnite world =)
cath appreciate everything in her life

=‘(

情人节前夕很开心
有巧克力 花 音乐 吉它
情人节当天很开心
****************
情人节后也很开心
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但就是今天很不开心
明天虽说是我的大日子
但我的心情是糟透的
无关任何人的事
都是我自己的问题
='( 天啊。。。
我完全是看不见自己了
我完全是听不见自己了
那幸福洋溢的笑容
我何时才能拥有
是我本身的问题吗？
好害怕 这种感觉 我真的好害怕失去
所以才不敢拥有 不敢前进 世上的都是那么现实吧？
什么摩天轮都只是骗小孩的儿戏玩意吗？
突然觉得好残忍 这世界
我想转换我的思想 我的情绪 我想笑着迎接每一天的早晨
我缺少了人生里头最重要的力量 但我却无法把它给找回来
我的动力 我的热情 都只能寄托在音乐 埋头苦练
我需要的是运气吗？
我当初引以为荣的学业 我的钢琴 我的爱 我的朋友
我都失去了
我的希望 我的风 我的自信
都幻灭了
不想成为第二选择
第三选择
我要成为第一选择
我要成为第一选择
第一！！！！！
Law of Attraction
明天是我的大日子 今年的愿望
靠晒你
我会变的
变得你不认识的另一个我
一个我满意的我
去迎接属于我的幸运

我是一只小小小猫
志气高
爬不高

上来走走

yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa 好久没上来小格料！！！
嗯最近都比较忙啦 忙学业忙过年忙吉它忙搞东搞西的
最重要是忙拍拖。。。。。才怪！！!LOL
最近是有一些追求者 其中一个追了还蛮久的
最近都有在开始观察和考虑他 嗯。
但想认真清楚过后 还是觉得不要比较好啦
并不是阴影什么的 只是拍拖的冲动真的没来 没有来
怎么去拍啊？拍蚊子咩
还有就是我觉得自己不好 T.T
不够漂亮 心地不够善良 不够成熟 不够能干 不够好脾气
学业不够好 歌唱得不够好听 吉它不够pro 气质不够 不够瘦 ToT
我想自己变好后 才去接受人啊
不想在喜欢的人面前 变得小小的 像上次一样
这样的恋情是不健康的 有过经验的我说 哈
嗯 问我有没有喜欢的人 O.O 惊！
这是一个不能说的秘密
好感是有啦 但是都不敢靠近 觉得自己不够好！
一定要变好才行~还有就是随缘
或许就如算命师所说的 十年以内我都找不到真正的吧？
全都会是过眼云烟呐~
何必特地去厕所点灯给自己呢？ 倒不如抱着现在的心情
平平地渡过吧 像他说的 多孝顺父母 搞好学业 =)
还有 正式宣布！我开始吃素咯！
吃素好 吃素棒 吃素好健康 我们谋杀小动物太多了
大家都是有生命的 我们不应该自相残杀
但是要在金宝吃素是一件非常困难的事 非常常非啊~
上次才不小心吃到虾仔和江鱼仔而已 对不起
但我真的有在尽力避免咯 起码比以前少吃很多很多了
但不好是很容易肚子饿咯

话说很好笑是慧最近好像在帮我物色男友咯！
问我这个行不行 那个行不行 帮我乱传绯闻
okay 咯 乱传绯闻都是我朋友的强项 随他们爽吧~
但是我在面子书谱的status写着希望找一个很会弹吉它的男友
其实是写给一个男生看的咯 因为他不会吉它 XD
说真的 就算你长得不帅 只要你很会弹吉它 我都会觉得你不错咯
如果你样子蛮好看的话 我又再次会觉得自己变小小料 LOL
会音乐的都会给到我不同感觉 可以说是有气质！
可惜真真追我的都不会音乐咯 会音乐的都只爱 FLIRT

不过讲来讲去 总结是 我还是会继续单身下去咯
直到对的自己 在对的时间 对的地点 遇到对的人
我要变好！ 外在与内在 =)