阴天

一种距离一种心情

突如期来的雨天打散了距离

也打散了心情

爱美~

啊~爱美的心回来了回来了

这一刹那的我的心情是超兴奋的说

一来是我终于回到了老家

二来是我终于有少许时间做我一直想做的事情

不再感到窒息

尽管大考将至

但我还是放松了自己一下下 XP

去浏览了好多保养时尚的部落

满足的update自己一下

话说那爱美的心归来了！！

前几个星期也就太邋遢了

尽管拍拖了但丝毫不给男朋友面子般

没打扮乱乱就给跳出门

太不像话了

就算他不投诉我也要投诉我自己！

要给他脸上沾光啊！ ='(

所以已经下定决心从现在

一直到结束金马伦工作为止

都要好好调理打扮增进自己

保持市场的同时又能让自己愉悦

何乐而不为！ 啊哈哈哈

不过有超多事情要办的说

在去金马伦之前 =.=

也要买超多东西

电话裤子鞋子修眉钱包等等等

还想过去弄头发呢 XD

也想把刘海流长 烫卷~

最重要的是 明天一定要办美美出门捏！

还要自拍 话说好久没自拍了 我fb的照片好丑！

还要update一下和小噢的进展

我们很好很好很好

没有吵架没有不爽什么的

没有很公开但双方家人亲密的朋友都已经知道了

我喜欢现在这样 什么都刚刚好 :）

跟他在一起每天都会大笑 因为他很会讲笑话

哈哈哈哈！ 而且很爱学我的笨动作 或者blur时候做的傻事！

开门的傻事给他模仿到超级像 ~。~

逗我笑大概是他专长之一吧

害我现在都变成超活泼的 大概也是被他感栾了吧

他就是这样保护着我

信息虽然常常忘记回

但我不会生气 因为我已经长大了

况且他一通电话就搞定一切了 =) hehe

啊哈哈哈哈~熟悉熟悉

out of control

seriously...

I am so f*cking hate my situation right now

having 3 test on next week yet I am still havent finish studying

I am just hanging around...fb-ing...chit chating...doing nonsense rubbish

exclude studying...

I am trying so hard to avoid...avoid from studying

I am wasting my time gao gao I know

I am gonna lost many marks I know

but I am just feels like hopeless

even trying so hard to convince myself

that I still have enough time to get all my study mood back

to chase an A perhaps

but I am really not in condition

to do anything

not emoness...not relationship or what else affecting me

but the studies...really driving me crazily

in this middle of the night...

until I have to pay my health...just for those stupid stress

I ruined my coursework marks

I am in very blur condition right now seriously...

totally lost all my patience

I couldn't focus ...

someone please just drag me out of this circumstances

all I want is just focusing...neither a break nor anything else

just get myself back onto the track.thatzit

I wish someone could slap me gao gao

wake me up from blurness

I just can't stand myself with this anymore

and frankly

all I want...in this sem ...

just to improve my result

and this will be perfect semester I guess :)

just full fill my wish one more time

I need to have some proof to myself

to gain back the confidence that I lost for so long

I am just an ordinary student without outstanding IQ

but all I need is some repay behind the effort I have put

I just don't want any disappointment and pull myself down once again

lower and lower

until I lost all my passion on studies

I am not blaming anyone else... but myself

but sometimes IDK what happened to myself as well

I couldn't find out the reason and I am not did it in on purpose

I am not mean to do it...

I am really wish to improve myself as well as my result

but I have no idea...

I am doing all this kind of bullpoo that I don't like to

not even wish to...

just wish me good luck and pass another 2 years safely

after that I will choose my own path without any unwillingness

like now

不幸与幸

话说我最近掉了钱包和电话

但我却意外捡到了一个很好的男朋友

把我生活上的细节照顾得妥贴

一直为我着想 为我担忧

生活上毫无保留的给我看透了

给我他能给的一切

现在身上毫无分文毫无身份毫无联系可言的我

完完全全依附在他身上

紧贴着是他的生活 他的照顾

一个人了许久 我从没想过

我会有这样的待遇 =)

就这样 仿佛真真切切

融入了他的生活

当我发觉我什么都不能做

我想只是静静的待在他身后

支持他任何决定 任何事物

做一个这样的女人就好

First Morning

I love the sunshine

just like I love the way you are

a smile

garlic bread

and mushroom soup

but the most important thing is

he is with me right now :)

the person who I rely on the most

the person who taking care of me

the person who give me everything I want

the person who give me huggies at once without delay

the person who always be by my side whenever bad things come

the person who always help me solve all the problems

took my tears my fears and all my pain

and now

he is be by my side

my personal guitarist

my sunshine

my man

Jeff :)

I loveeu

thanks for appearing in my long long journey

and lead me along the journey...

the first morning I heard your voice calling me

and I opened my eyes first saw your smile

that was the greatest moment I had

when you smile...

my life becomes a ray of light

淋雨

有些事

在淋过一场之后反而好像

会看得更透彻

至少我现在就像淋得醉了一样

决定在这里敢敢胡言乱语了

我没把我们事情

说得太多太仔细在这里

似乎对你有些不公平

然而你真的是在我生命里泛起涟漪的其中一人

我们有很多共同的经历 事情

照片我应该放这里 但我却放进心里了

因为这里都只记录不开心

而你却是在开心那一头的

话说回来 我淋了这场雨

这场明知道会下很大的雨 却特地不带伞

特地不打给你 特地的特地 跑了出门

我一路上自己一个人走着走着

风雷很大 但我还自顾自的走着走着

吃了碌碌 拿了东西

结果雨就忍不住哗啦啦的下了起来

但我就是很大人的走着走着

然后在一个凉亭里休息了一会儿

然后遇见了我以往一直很想遇到的人

擦肩而过 ...

然后雨停了

我又继续走了 走了回家

很想说

我也曾经那么幸福过 身边总是围绕着帮助我的人

有些是喜欢的人 有些是朋友

他们总是为我准备一切周到

而我似乎也理所当然的接受

但当这一切在你选择沉默

在你选择放弃这一些机遇时

上天其实并不会在你最需要帮助的时候

把一个你最需要他帮助的人摆在你面前

也没有所谓特别的逻辑或程式

能计算你需要被帮助的时间与所在点

总的来说

人终究还是孤独的

无论你之前沉浸在多么的美好

多么的幸福时刻

你最需要一个人的时候

往往他是不在 不存在

又或者擦肩而过 看不见而已