2012年2月26日星期日

有时候突如其来的情绪
我也会被自己吓倒了
当你不想说话
连最想收到信息的人信息你的时候
你也会置之不理的时候
我知道 情绪来了
有时候就是这样一下子无缘无故的被打败
有谁又喜欢那种无力的挣脱感
当被缠绕时 那种无法解脱的心情
点点滴滴在心头

喝酒 又岂能摆脱这些所谓看似可有可无的小事
能力被否定 舞台不再属于你的时候
你是仰起头看着别人在絢丽的灯光中挥洒着他们美丽的人生
那步法 那舞动
都是你跟不上的
所以 你才会是台下的观众
而不是台上的台柱
追求目光其实也是一种潜意识的虚荣感
只是 当你没能力的时候
你不好意思表明要求

我也想那么轰轰烈烈的争气一次
然而使尽力气 不行还是不行
命运不站你这边
哪怕是自己的酒量
我也斗不过
最终就只落得那狼狈的画面





2012年2月22日星期三

还是会沮丧

有时你更本无法想像
当你很努力想要实现一个
你一直以来很想要的梦想
而你又发觉其实也没那么难的时候
突然间一些事物阻挡了你
无法前进

眼睁睁看着别人的起跑点
明明比你更后面
但现在却逐渐追上了你
甚至超越你
而你 还是原地踏步
而你只能默默在心里喊一声 使特

这到底是什么烂心情
有时很想假装不在乎
或说一句 算了吧
但是 你会发现
一切其实都没有那么简单

没有声音的我
叫我怎能不沮丧




2012年2月13日星期一

情人节快乐



女人最幸福的
莫过于找到一个
值得依靠的男人
被照顾 呵护 以及珍惜



情人节快乐 :)







2012年2月6日星期一

真假

很多感觉似真似假
你伤我我伤你的局面已经在所难免
看开 只因为成长
做了一些幼稚的行为又如何
曾经的誓言
不堪一击也只在一瞬间
如何看待这一瞬间
只能说世事无常
事过境迁
人面全非
不能怪谁
一切来得太快
也要试着去接受
患得患失 已不再是王道
亦真亦假 才得以继续走下去
模糊一切又如何
人生本来就没有绝对是非对错
或许伤了 或许没伤
但这次总算实现了
以保护自己为前提
以让自己幸福下去的自私
为理由

这些风霜都不能经历
你要如何成长
成长 免不了痛

同样的
连我自己都不能做到的
我也不会再去期望你能为我做到
这是我能让出的一点慷慨

某人说得没错
我只是一个反复无常
说话不算话的
BITCH







2012年2月4日星期六

yea yea

I decided to write this post in English
because actually now I am doing
my report
and suddenly realizing that I haven't
jot down any notes for the day of
PUTTING MY BRACES ON yet
okay now I am writing

without any photos okay?
bcause it is damn fugly
I think I need some time to get used
to the braces on my teeth
perhaps someday I may take a proper picture
for my bloggie
Bloggie I am sorry! just be patient and wait =)

yea on Friday I have put on the braces
as it is one of my wishlist and I had fulfilled it finally
Frankly speaking the dentist actually is quite handsem
because he has a very nice teeth whenever he throw
his smiling face to me
melting for 2 seconds hahaha

yaa same thing he did everything in very fast pace
about one hour he finished all the thing
as I can finally see so many little steel thingy
attached on my teeth
it is not really obvious when I am smiling since
it is so rare I open my mouth big big and smile heeeee

but the very funniest thing was actually I was sick on that day
keep coughing non stop
you can imagine while I open my mouth doing the surgery
but I couldn't cough? HAHA
and one thing is many saliva will come out while putting on the braces
but there is a pipe and I wondering what is it
it is like sucking my saliva =0 I am not so sure about it

the pain will only come after the doctor started using the iron wire
and tie every single steel thingy on your teeth together
you can definitely feel the pain, or paralysis ?
I am not sure how to call that kind of feeling
is just so complicated feelings I had now

actually quite a lot awkward moment during the process
like my head touching doctor's belly =X
saliva keeps splitting out
when your teeth color is not so nice (yellow)
all ugly part of you can be seen clearly by your doctor
so it is impossible to kao your own dentist
you have LOST YOUR IMAGE infront of your doctor

he knows I am very nervous throughout the process
so when finish all the things
he touched my cheek =) to ease my nervousness
hahahaahha such a wen rou dentist that I never met
how good if he could sing for me while next time I visit him
it might can ease my pain as well =(

and one good thing is
I lost my weight
apparently I get back my cockroach's leg again
my hand and even my face
had slim down a little bit
photos can lie you ten years eight years
but if you see my real person then you can differentiate it
how amazing was that
is just in few days

of cause lar for the first day after put on the braces
I only drank soya milk without taking any solid food eh
but my baby bu ren xin see I starve myself
so he brought me eat porridge in the middle of the night
but I could barely take a small bowl in
I didn't bite any meat for 2 days
even rice also makan sikit sikit saje
I have no appetite to take any food
due to the pain
I will definitely lost my weight ba huahahah
as I always wish to slim down my face and body


houuuuuuu
that's all for my post for today
kinda busy after opening sem
a lot of things have to take care of
events and academic
and I fall sick for one week d =(
luckily babies were with me =)
I am so lucky to have you all accompany me
Friends are always better than lover
for sure

I never get any regards from you
even you knew I fall sick
=) nevermind I look open already
I got my baby








2012年2月1日星期三

其实
我已经比想象中勇敢

如果说的都是真话
那该多好