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夏末的城市有些冷漠。

準備入冬的人們總在找尋那雙溫熱的手。
再沒有甚麼氣候適合幸福揮霍
沒有甚麼值得 未雨綢繆。

宇恒

It is indeed a nice quote that taken from YU HENG

well I am in cameron right now with the cold weather

even just take a little breath would take me to hell coldness

my hand was cold and shaking all the time

yet I am finding that warmest hand to hold me tight

but I just failed to find it.

yes I guess I am gonna fail in a relationship again

Distance is never be the problem for a relationship

I suddenly realize.

that is Doubt ruined all this all the time

perhaps faithfulness also get involve

when someone who is important not beside you

when you helpless when you are emotional

the one who suppose to be by your side

is not beside you anymore

and you got to face it all by yourself

you started lose faith about him

you doubted

everyone does I guess...not only mee

but my friend got tell me some interesting guidance

he said God will never separate those supposedly-together couple apart

unless they are not belong to each other

then. break up happens like normal but life goes on

only those couple which they are suppose together

they are born to stay with each other for resting of life

will never ever be separated

no matter how tough the situation it is

nor how hard the life they will be get through

if...I told myself

if...he is not belongs to you

what point to hold him back since you know he is not the right one?

if he really belongs to you

and you are fated to spend rest of your life with him

you don't have to be afraid for losing him

you don't have to explain so much

wasting time quarrel with same topic over and over again

forgive the same mistakes he did over and over again

I tell myself..you don't have to

you don't even have to

if he do loves you , he will just hold you tightly

putting down his ego, and ask you don't leave, stay

he will do all this because he loves you, isn't it?

because you know that God will finally give you the answer

the right one...

I will just take it and leave

no matter how is the conclusion

I will just hibernate myself

disappear myself from your world

let some space between us

that will be made us more clearly to know about

what we actually need

and do you really love me