2011年10月28日星期五

For you

这几天金马伦风特别特别大
雨也是毛毛个不停
一天比一天冷
太阳都只眷念乌云的背影

那天毛毛雨刮大风的瞬间
耳机响起一遍又一遍的你太猖狂
望着远处 那顶端的云层
眼前的雨景也失焦了
风使劲地刮起 仿佛一巴一巴地被打醒

好几天没再跟你联络
自从那天说了狠话后 你就像雾一样消失掉
从我世界里消失掉 消失掉
我是后悔极了 没错 后悔
后来在不算正式分手的几天里
金马伦刹那间变得好冷 心好冷
穿很多很厚 也掩盖不了 内心的冷厉
脑里回味的 是一遍又一遍的
你太猖狂

后来打算抛开所有自尊垃圾去找你
但使劲力气都憋不出勇气
深怕会再次给你压力
我的出现 是否真的只会给你带来伤悲?
我让你挫折了吗?
很不开心 因为现在留下的景象
都只有压力 眼泪 不开心的一切一切

我 真的很想让你幸福
就像你也想让我幸福一样
重点并不在于谁能给我更好的一切
是在于我要的一切是你
你也不必自责 不能给予我要的幸福
因为我要的幸福我会选择 而我的选择是你

有什么事 是我们不能一起走的?
学业的困扰 我们能为彼此加油打气
忽略的问候 我可以学习体谅
责怪埋怨 你可以试着了解
一起生活 互相的伴 我要的 是这一些
一切都那么的圆满 但为何半途要放弃?

驾驶时还要使劲牵住的手
还是一起醒来的早晨?
互相调换的猪肠粉
还是一起抓过的蟑螂
不见钱包时的慌乱
背后的拥抱
槟城的低调出走
海边吹过的风 一起碰过的酒品
被你轻易实现的愿望
看过的戏 走过的超级市场
甚至 一起表演过的舞台
走过的路
金马伦
都是回忆




现在 只能等时间冲淡了一点
然后 再找你 像往常一样的问候
你还能接受吗? 会压力吗?
我不会再强逼你面对 或回答
就让彼此冷静下来 先好好思考解决 好吗?
等再见面以后 再做打算
这段期间 我们就当什么关系都不是
平静的渡过这时期就好了


真的真的
很不想失去
我该怎么办?


我会把这片帖子铺上面子书墙上
就只有你会看见
希望 真心希望
你还能来看我的墙
能看见这篇帖子...

考虑清楚
因为一旦错过 就真的不能回头了
给彼此一个机会。。。好吗?


我只希望有个机会能被你再次爱上








How

How...
Should I wait?
Should I keep going?
Should I wait while keep going?
We need time...perhaps...
I clarified my thought...my will
I thought you would understand
but somehow you choose to avoid...
am I giving you too much of pressure?
as follow your will...I am single
set both of us free

But I will wait for the right moment
and asking you once again
though the answer might be negative
but somehow I still hoping there is a turn for us
I pray hard..but it is not works at all
so I choose to blank my mind
and staying calm...
waiting...the time to lead me the way I should

you know I cried
you know I love you
you know me well
I did told you...
but why everything changing so fast?
why...there is no answer ..
as always



2011年10月9日星期日

J

夏末的城市有些冷漠。
準備入冬的人們總在找尋那雙溫熱的手。
再沒有甚麼氣候適合幸福揮霍
沒有甚麼值得 未雨綢繆。

宇恒


It is indeed a nice quote that taken from YU HENG
well I am in cameron right now with the cold weather
even just take a little breath would take me to hell coldness
my hand was cold and shaking all the time
yet I am finding that warmest hand to hold me tight
but I just failed to find it.
yes I guess I am gonna fail in a relationship again
Distance is never be the problem for a relationship
I suddenly realize.
that is Doubt ruined all this all the time
perhaps faithfulness also get involve
when someone who is important not beside you
when you helpless when you are emotional
the one who suppose to be by your side
is not beside you anymore
and you got to face it all by yourself
you started lose faith about him
you doubted
everyone does I guess...not only mee

but my friend got tell me some interesting guidance
he said God will never separate those supposedly-together couple apart
unless they are not belong to each other
then. break up happens like normal but life goes on
only those couple which they are suppose together
they are born to stay with each other for resting of life
will never ever be separated
no matter how tough the situation it is
nor how hard the life they will be get through

if...I told myself
if...he is not belongs to you
what point to hold him back since you know he is not the right one?
if he really belongs to you
and you are fated to spend rest of your life with him
you don't have to be afraid for losing him
you don't have to explain so much
wasting time quarrel with same topic over and over again
forgive the same mistakes he did over and over again
I tell myself..you don't have to
you don't even have to
if he do loves you , he will just hold you tightly
putting down his ego, and ask you don't leave, stay
he will do all this because he loves you, isn't it?
because you know that God will finally give you the answer
the right one...

I will just take it and leave
no matter how is the conclusion
I will just hibernate myself
disappear myself from your world
let some space between us
that will be made us more clearly to know about
what we actually need
and do you really love me







2011年10月7日星期五

我要上诉!!!

TMD!!!
其母之!!!
我突然觉得我这三个月会过得好惨好惨
牺牲了吉它唱歌学习时间不在话下
还有可能变成一块炭...
我真的只想说...
其母之 欺骗我...
啊~要不把我活活给冷死
不然就晒死我吧~
求你求你求你

让我可以回家
找我那堆唱歌吉它的伴
我很想念他们 :(

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