2011年8月4日星期四

淋雨


有些事
在淋过一场之后反而好像
会看得更透彻
至少我现在就像淋得醉了一样
决定在这里敢敢胡言乱语了

我没把我们事情
说得太多太仔细在这里
似乎对你有些不公平
然而你真的是在我生命里泛起涟漪的其中一人
我们有很多共同的经历 事情
照片我应该放这里 但我却放进心里了
因为这里都只记录不开心
而你却是在开心那一头的


话说回来 我淋了这场雨
这场明知道会下很大的雨 却特地不带伞
特地不打给你 特地的特地 跑了出门
我一路上自己一个人走着走着
风雷很大 但我还自顾自的走着走着
吃了碌碌 拿了东西
结果雨就忍不住哗啦啦的下了起来
但我就是很大人的走着走着
然后在一个凉亭里休息了一会儿
然后遇见了我以往一直很想遇到的人
擦肩而过 ...
然后雨停了
我又继续走了 走了回家

很想说
我也曾经那么幸福过 身边总是围绕着帮助我的人
有些是喜欢的人 有些是朋友
他们总是为我准备一切周到
而我似乎也理所当然的接受
但当这一切在你选择沉默
在你选择放弃这一些机遇时
上天其实并不会在你最需要帮助的时候
把一个你最需要他帮助的人摆在你面前
也没有所谓特别的逻辑或程式
能计算你需要被帮助的时间与所在点
总的来说

人终究还是孤独的

无论你之前沉浸在多么的美好
多么的幸福时刻
你最需要一个人的时候
往往他是不在 不存在
又或者擦肩而过 看不见而已



2011年7月27日星期三

怎么了


可以不要大锣大鼓的闯进我的生活
然后一声不响的溜走吗?
之前为我做下的许多事
我不说并不代表我没看见

还是那一切都只是你的伎俩...?

付出了 真的可以不求回报吗?

我不明白 不明白
你所做的一切 然后突然改变的一切
像风一样转变
就好像转个弯 就不见掉一样
那是一种失落

那只是短短的瞬间
突然间拥有的幸福
又突然间消失掉

习惯了有你的存在 你的问候
叫我如何找回已经被打乱的生活

太猖狂了



=.=


到底是有...? 还是没有??!

真忐忑 脑袋一片空白



乱了的话
请把我给找回来

2011年7月26日星期二

我

已经很久没回来这里了
回到这里只想说
我今天emo很够力一下
我讨厌心情像升降机酱上上下下
我讨厌心情不好时我不知道跟谁说
我讨厌半途而废
我讨厌无常
我讨厌自己突然之间讨厌很多事情
或许亲戚没来?

脑海突然浮现lecturer哭泣的画面
告诉我说人生无常 要珍惜身边人事物 时间
做有用的事
但我脑海里现在只有空白
我需要调适 需要时间 需要休息 需要喘息的空间?


累了 所以又出现在这里了

很多事情突然遇到瓶颈
我无法释怀 因为找不到答案







2011年7月17日星期日

same

It's just the same old story
keep repeating without any turning
or surprising...
just couldn't get out from this cycle
but I know it is never too late...to wake myself up from this moment
I am lucky enough that I realize it before it comes to another
same ending

and I am definitely an idiot

2011年7月10日星期日

我不读了我不读了我不读了我不读了
其母之!!!!!!
一个礼拜四分报告
我要我的表演成功啦
可是如何分身?
死报告去到哪都要带着你
吃饭都没胃口!!!!









2011年7月1日星期五

Precious moment



Awhhh
here was the place
full of our precious memories
that should be kept inside our heart forever
our Cameron Campsite
Barre Centre!!!
(correct me if I spell wrong kay? =p)





Committee + Participants
hehehe





I am not walking alone :)
I could remember everyone who did help me,
lend me their hand along the journey
whenever I am helpless






logistic committee-Bearrr Goh
aka camera man
aka Ipad owner
XD




My beloved committee members
Jackie, Roy, Ji Yang, Jeff
and best camper Yi Ren






Starbucks :)
lucky enough to get free drink
buahahahha
warmest and comfortable night ever we passed






Our chairman mia fei wen nv you
Jscy :)
she is cute and responsible
had great time with her
wish to know more about her XP





Wendy :)
PR group in our camp
another singer who I admire the most
she can sing very well yet she is very cute
whenever mention his Mr.A






yesss
all the female committee aka leng lui are here!!
ahhahaha
we are crazyyyyy don't get close to us XD






Steamboat night
another memorable night we had together
the moment we had joy had fun
the night full of ghost stories
keke I love you guys






We went out for watching the polluted
"WATERFALL"
hahahahha
participants was kena tipu lar





Jungle trekking
Lydia and me follow behind
our responsibilities to take care of the participants
thankiu so much for guiding me
I think I am the most useless program manager ever XD






one of the participant =)
xiao xiao if I am not remember wrongly
poor memory what to do XDD






participants + committee
Our emo expression LOL~




all smile so nice :)
hahahax






KICHI KICHI!!!
she is Victoria
my coursemate aka jimui
one of our committee fall for her
XD sorry Mr.R







BoBo and me
his "Baby" was our camp legend XDD
btw he did a very good job
thanks for bringing fun to us lol~
the drama was very successful






I love the sunshine there...
thats what I have been waiting for long time
thanks God :)





having breakfast in the early morning
another 'xing fu' moment






Boon Jie me and the flowerss





Ji Yang and me






Wendy and Me again~
The morning sunshine in church :)






Lydia and me






is just another memorable days
that I couldn't forget throughout my life
although I am not really putting much effort
even try my best from the very beginning
since everyone was leaving program group
and I was feels like giving up
but I keep telling myself that I can't do that
since once I had determined to do the job
I should continue without regret
and in the end comes up with unexpected gift in my life
u guys :)
and we became one big family

I really appreciate for those
who really help me during the running of program
T.T
actually I am kinda touched when they didn't shoot me
in our camp review
Coz I know my arrangement of the program flow was sucks enough
yet I couldn't able to conduct any of the games
because of my poor expression,language
and shy and whatever
I know I didn't try my best
but you guys never ever give up
you guys put alot effort on it
somemore carrying my responsibilities and burden
taking care of me
T.T I am sorry
the words I wish to say thousand of times


The camp song and the theme song
our faci in every groups
our EMCEE
thanks for everything
and to those who take care of me
in these 3 days
the blanket, breads, concern from you guys
I will always remember all these memories
;)
I love you guys
never forget we had a great time in cameron
even after we graduated
working and till the end of our life XDD

ohh cameron ,come and enjoy and feel the breeze together
I could only remember this sentence == XD

Music is always the best way to link ppl together
we know each other because of music
and here we became family because of music as well
we all are music lover

Do take care
Summer camp rocks ! XD