才去马六甲几天而已
就已经拿了我几天的健康
难道真的那么不tahan meh
搞不懂自己身子的状况
在想如此柔弱的身子 与自己爱好到处走的性格
有点背道而驰
想想再多一个星期多就要回去面对压力
就有点退缩的感觉
经过一场水痘战之后
以前从未担心过自己健康问题的我
突然开始担心日后的自己会因健康
而无法应付外来的事物 外来的压力
这些担忧都在健康亮起红灯的时候来临
虽然察觉到自己的身子越来越不好
但是我还是尽力的去保护自己
就好比在马六甲那些日子
我买了一些健康书籍给自己
水果也吃了好多好多
因为即将来临的日子里 我知道还有很多很多未完成的事情
使命终究还是会延续
要让自己变得更好
虽然有时候上天没赋予我一些天生就能拥有的幸运
但当我在羡慕别人拥有幸运的同时
我发觉上天其实也没有给予人人都能拥有 而除了你
既然有些人有 有些人没有
其实 这就证明了 上天其实是公平的
我记得以前有一个朋友望着我笑说：上天是公平的
当下我很想揍他几拳
因为我知道他在挖苦我说：
-我很会唱歌很会读书， 但是我缺乏外在条件-
没错，从小就是这样给别人笑的
所以我时时刻刻
都提醒着自己要做到十全十美
要不就不要做 决定做了就要尽力 且要拿到好成绩
所以别人常会看到我似乎懒懒散散 可是一旦做起来
我是真的尽我所能 但似乎只有真正了解的朋友才能看得出
我这股劲儿~
近几年我的火其实也消得七七八八
以前的我会很尽力的去争取我想要的
但是现在的我反而越来越顺气自然
别人拥有的 我也不想去争取自己那一份
我自己那一份 失去了也不会想要取回
因为我被-变卦-吓得不敢再去期盼了
只想安安份份的做我应该做的事
不去计较争多或争少
我察觉自己变了
但我能做些什么 ?
如果我说 长得越大 看的事情就越复杂
那我们可不可以拒绝长大？
以前会很好胜的
要一切事情都掌控在自己手里
决不能有半分差毫 亦不能在我掌控之外
曾几何时 我也是一个控制狂
但今日 不算看透什么
只是在从多次的胜战 到后来多次的失败
站起来又跌到 跌到后又站起来后
这份麻木 还算得上是麻木吗？
人生还是有很多模糊点
而我也只能靠这些成败事迹
模糊前进。。。摸索
-是时候冲一个凉
兜风。。。医饱肚子去~
爱上这份自由 ;) -
2011年5月15日星期日
MALACCA lovely trip buahahaha
The journey was started with a lovely ribbon
and worms ==
Seriously I hate the worms so much!
For making the delicious nyonya ketupat
we got to fight with the worms!
there is alot alot but the picta seems blur =p
haha
our malacca so called
" lazy tour guide"
by the way
thanks for guiding us along the trip
love ya
For making the delicious nyonya ketupat
we got to fight with the worms!
there is alot alot but the picta seems blur =p
haha
our malacca so called
" lazy tour guide"
by the way
thanks for guiding us along the trip
love ya
We are hiding in the lubang
and giving many type of gesture
wtf some of the tourist saw our stupid act
they were laughing us
XD
this is yee kei.
a photographer
holding a nikon brand worth 2000 bucks DSLR
wow!
this is chung c mun
she kinda abit ss (syok sendiri)
hahaha!
the sunset in malacca
what a beautiful scene
touching when seeing this
I was thinking to enlarge this picta
aiya so mahuan
me drinking coconut drinks
was having sorethroat that time
coconut drinks does not really help
lalala
we are having dinner at Portugis village
a famous sea food restaurant
the crab was not bad
but it did makes you sorethroat gao gao
we are having dinner at Portugis village
a famous sea food restaurant
the crab was not bad
but it did makes you sorethroat gao gao
sure we having " tan cha " session as well
and most important was BR!!
Baskin Robbin!
love you the most!
Green tea would be my favorite all the time
I met ellyn at san shu gong!
the day after that day was her birthday!
argh! I missed it
so here I am gonna wish her again
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
good news was
she got bf already.
owh so sweet ...shhh =p
having 千层蛋糕 yoooo
delicious enough to brighten up my day
XDDD
feeling so good
but too many people inside the restaurant
kinda noisy and spoiled the high tea mood there
going red house to have some photo shooting session
a very nice historical places
alot people taking photos there
and saw many foreigners =)
handsome foreigners wakakakak
all have a very sharp nose
nicest photo!
the colors the contrast of the pictas
I like this the most
thought I got a super tiring look
but just ignore me XD
church?
it is beautiful
those who like to take picture can come here
a nice view
and you could see the sunset in malacca there
buying necklace for my mum
sis and some friends
but my taste was too good until my mum
wanna grab all the necklace I bought
sad. I should buy more
my super duper big size rice!
siao lang.
I don't know izit the chef admire me or what
this is very the huge size of rice I have ever seen before
I think the amount suits for 3 person?
in the end I can't finish it
whenever eating BR.
photoshooting is a MUST XD
photoshooting is a MUST XD
my punya noob face!
hahaha
they said I eat like a child
ss session again
bo bian XD
I bought 3 books and some accessories
arr and one tshirt but I didn't take pictas for all of that
we went Jusco and the very first thing we bought was
BOOKS!
3 books for 24 bucks
damn cheap XD
Due to the fried thingy
now I have got a super duper sexyyyy voice
like angelina jolie~yeah~
I ate quite a lot things there
so after came back from malacca
I push alot of fruits into my mouth
so that constipation won't come and visit me XD
arrr we watched fast and furious 5!
thumbs up for that seriously!
damn yeng!
after you watching you will be very proud of driving manual car
HAHA!
watching movie is always the best activity for spending your time
feels like wanna marry with botak in future
I am so in love with the botak right now
most of the time we were in shopping center
instead of the historical famous places
I was kind regret that I didn't visit the seaside
there is alot of people playing kites there
such a beautiful place that I missed it
ish
nevermind
I had promised ellyn that I will get back to that place soon
backpack would be my choice for the next visiting
quite attracted by the guest house there
some more got live band singing in the night
I like that kind of mood so muchie
going trip alone actually doesn't mean
you are lonely
it is another sort of lifestyle
I do really enjoy while going trip alone
instead of going with a group
errr but frankly I didn't get too much of feeling
through this malacca trip
since my sorethroat had spoiled my mood and everything or what
just bought something that I feel that was needed to give to my friends
but I got to say that Malacca was really a nice place to go
but too bad was I was really too easily feeling tired
owhhhh NO way.
such a weak body ==d
arr really hope to visit the seaside ar!
I want to play kites there
and take a lot of pictas
by the way MALACCA I will be back
soon =p
2011年5月11日星期三
在启程马六甲前的无聊动作
很久很久没有拍照了
在生水痘的时候
连镜子也不敢照 XD
总算今天能铺头出来见人了
笑容还有待进步 下一次一定要学会笑得更
灿烂一些！
感觉异常的幸福
因为今天又和妈妈去了whywhy那里吃午餐
还和妈妈谈很多很多
好想把这些宝贵时光留住
与家人的相处时间真的很宝贵呢
以后工作可能就要忙翻天了
家人的支持永远是最重要的
那天接到了一个不怎么好的消息
虽然与我无关
但心低就好像深深被打了一个大洞
感觉不怎么。。。好
若有一天，我喜欢的人
不是男生
你们会是怎样看我？
说笑的啦 XD
明天就去马六甲了
该带着什么心情去那里呢？
在生水痘的时候
连镜子也不敢照 XD
总算今天能铺头出来见人了
笑容还有待进步 下一次一定要学会笑得更
灿烂一些！
感觉异常的幸福
因为今天又和妈妈去了whywhy那里吃午餐
还和妈妈谈很多很多
好想把这些宝贵时光留住
与家人的相处时间真的很宝贵呢
以后工作可能就要忙翻天了
家人的支持永远是最重要的
那天接到了一个不怎么好的消息
虽然与我无关
但心低就好像深深被打了一个大洞
感觉不怎么。。。好
若有一天，我喜欢的人
不是男生
你们会是怎样看我？
说笑的啦 XD
明天就去马六甲了
该带着什么心情去那里呢？
2011年5月9日星期一
FINALLY
YOOO
finally final is over
just feeling like everything has settle down
FINALLY
don't need to carry the notes
all the places I go
don't need to suffer in insomnia
even I know my cgpa will be damn low this time
but I already prepare for that
most probably I can't even pass the subjects
I know myself well
by the way
I must get ready for that before I was shocked by my own result
again and broke down cried like a baby in cc
I want to extend one more sem for my degree
if I really can't make it or what
since my previous timetable ruined everything
sigh...
anyways I will just keep going
okay let's enjoy my holidaysss now
not really long but it's enough for charging
next week will be going to malacca with my friend
HAHA wanna take many many pictas with her
but I got no nice camera in my hand
I think it will be fun with her
just forget about the things that tie me so tight
and rock yea~
and officially giving up for something
and it doesn't matter ...from now on
finally final is over
just feeling like everything has settle down
FINALLY
don't need to carry the notes
all the places I go
don't need to suffer in insomnia
even I know my cgpa will be damn low this time
but I already prepare for that
most probably I can't even pass the subjects
I know myself well
by the way
I must get ready for that before I was shocked by my own result
again and broke down cried like a baby in cc
I want to extend one more sem for my degree
if I really can't make it or what
since my previous timetable ruined everything
sigh...
anyways I will just keep going
okay let's enjoy my holidaysss now
not really long but it's enough for charging
next week will be going to malacca with my friend
HAHA wanna take many many pictas with her
but I got no nice camera in my hand
I think it will be fun with her
just forget about the things that tie me so tight
and rock yea~
and officially giving up for something
and it doesn't matter ...from now on
but frankly.
I am really scared of failing my subjects eh
please give me enough strength to face it TT
I am really scared of failing my subjects eh
please give me enough strength to face it TT
2011年5月6日星期五
all about unpredictable
When something doesn't go with the flow you expected
what you gonna do? how you gonna face it?
when something doesn't happen in the way you wish to?
would you give up ? or just keep going until you can't stand for that?
reaching your limitation and found that actually you are helpless
will you turn back and start all over again?
something happens not in the way I want it
everything also the same. it is not under my expectation. out of it
People confuse with their future, their target...
so we keep repeating the current state
we thought we are safe if we maintain in current state instead of changing
we afraid of changing
so we just doing the same thing we thought it suppose to do
even we got the chance to change ourselves.
would you dare to give up what you have possess now
and start the another path which you never choose before?
I am confuse and lost for this moment
I can't even manage to know who I wan to be what I want
and what kind of life suppose to I have
I am helpless and useless in front of fate
just feeling everything is out of my control
out of my expectation
and I can't even able to convince myself
that every decision I made was right
something lost , and I couldn't find it back
people laugh smile
that is a reflection of mine
showing emptiness inside of myself
helplessness for everything
is it all about myself?
I wonder and I got no answer
and seriously I hate putting hope on others
and I do hate the feeling of falling in love
just in case you fall for a person
or a person who falling for you
you gotta change and turn yourself
to the another one that is more favorable to your loves one
and you gotta put expectation on that people
to fulfill your whatever needs
and you gotta fulfill you loves one's needs for repaying as well
and the sad case was
I am not really like to be controlled by people
I mean my own feelings
it is supposedly belongs to myself
but my feeling was like uncontrollable follow with the person I care for
I have already fed up with this kind of feeling
it is distracting you from studies, family and even friends
undeniable that is sweet if that person fulfill your expectation
giving the concerned and attention you want
but when you lose it, you gotta repay it with bitterness
that's the experience I have gone through thousand million times
and I almost bored with the taste of disappointment.
and that was the most suffering thingy throughout my life
I leave HIM because of the same reason
since so many things happen is not in the way I want
I knew no matter how much I pray I wont get the answer
no matter how hard I try
future is always unpredictable
so I decided
to stand here quietly, doing the things that I thought it suppose to do with
and I don't expect anything. yea trying my best
to not request anything again .
just standing here silently...
what you gonna do? how you gonna face it?
when something doesn't happen in the way you wish to?
would you give up ? or just keep going until you can't stand for that?
reaching your limitation and found that actually you are helpless
will you turn back and start all over again?
something happens not in the way I want it
everything also the same. it is not under my expectation. out of it
People confuse with their future, their target...
so we keep repeating the current state
we thought we are safe if we maintain in current state instead of changing
we afraid of changing
so we just doing the same thing we thought it suppose to do
even we got the chance to change ourselves.
would you dare to give up what you have possess now
and start the another path which you never choose before?
I am confuse and lost for this moment
I can't even manage to know who I wan to be what I want
and what kind of life suppose to I have
I am helpless and useless in front of fate
just feeling everything is out of my control
out of my expectation
and I can't even able to convince myself
that every decision I made was right
something lost , and I couldn't find it back
people laugh smile
that is a reflection of mine
showing emptiness inside of myself
helplessness for everything
is it all about myself?
I wonder and I got no answer
and seriously I hate putting hope on others
and I do hate the feeling of falling in love
just in case you fall for a person
or a person who falling for you
you gotta change and turn yourself
to the another one that is more favorable to your loves one
and you gotta put expectation on that people
to fulfill your whatever needs
and you gotta fulfill you loves one's needs for repaying as well
and the sad case was
I am not really like to be controlled by people
I mean my own feelings
it is supposedly belongs to myself
but my feeling was like uncontrollable follow with the person I care for
I have already fed up with this kind of feeling
it is distracting you from studies, family and even friends
undeniable that is sweet if that person fulfill your expectation
giving the concerned and attention you want
but when you lose it, you gotta repay it with bitterness
that's the experience I have gone through thousand million times
and I almost bored with the taste of disappointment.
and that was the most suffering thingy throughout my life
I leave HIM because of the same reason
since so many things happen is not in the way I want
I knew no matter how much I pray I wont get the answer
no matter how hard I try
future is always unpredictable
so I decided
to stand here quietly, doing the things that I thought it suppose to do with
and I don't expect anything. yea trying my best
to not request anything again .
just standing here silently...
2011年5月2日星期一
2011年5月1日星期日
唱歌呀~
嗯嗯嗯
突然之间 好想唱歌 唱广东歌
这令我想起了在马六甲的美好时段亚~
那是一段幸福的人生恩典呐~
第一次让我觉得
唱歌并不是为了要在人生上记载你多少的胜战
而是一场享受 一种交流
一颗心的抒发
一种无可言喻的自信
唱歌并不是为了要在人生上记载你多少的胜战
而是一场享受 一种交流
一颗心的抒发
一种无可言喻的自信
甚至
唱歌可以是一种慈善 一种付出
一颗爱心的显现
你对生命热诚的眼光
那颗炙热的心在燃烧呐~
燃烧着你的青春 时间
却是你心甘情愿的
最想回到的 莫过于station one的舞台
想从踏上这一阁舞台
那聚光灯并不是荣耀的炫示
而是在台下看见漆黑的一片
却深知在这些漆黑的当中 隐藏着耳朵
聆听你的故事 或陶醉在与你的共鸣之中
尽管看不清台下的观众席
被照耀得无法睁开眼睛
却是另一翻的安全感
让你晓得 存在的这份安全感
或许无人听晓你的故事
但是却是人生里头
最落寞 却又温情地
徐徐叙述着 哼着
给这夜晚听着
给这世界听着
*是否今年没有蜡烛
所以愿望不能被实现
还是上天要考验我对它的这份炙热
在适当的时候再给予我？
好想好想 把station one 的 moment
给时刻 hold 住
=)
想从踏上这一阁舞台
那聚光灯并不是荣耀的炫示
而是在台下看见漆黑的一片
却深知在这些漆黑的当中 隐藏着耳朵
聆听你的故事 或陶醉在与你的共鸣之中
尽管看不清台下的观众席
被照耀得无法睁开眼睛
却是另一翻的安全感
让你晓得 存在的这份安全感
或许无人听晓你的故事
但是却是人生里头
最落寞 却又温情地
徐徐叙述着 哼着
给这夜晚听着
给这世界听着
*是否今年没有蜡烛
所以愿望不能被实现
还是上天要考验我对它的这份炙热
在适当的时候再给予我？
好想好想 把station one 的 moment
给时刻 hold 住
=)
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