tian hei hei

我的小时候
吵闹任性时侯
我的外婆
总会唱歌哄我
夏天的午后
老老的歌安慰我
那首歌好象这样唱的
天黑黑欲落雨
天黑黑黑黑
离开小时候
有了自己的生活
新鲜的歌
新鲜的念头
任性和冲动
无法控制的时候
我忘记
还有这样的歌
天黑黑欲落雨
天黑黑黑黑
我爱上让我奋不顾身的一个人
我以为这就是我所追求的世界
然而横冲直撞被误解被骗
是否成人的世界背后总有残缺
我走在每天必须面对的分岔路
我怀念过去单纯美好的小幸福
爱总是让人哭
让人觉得不满足
天空很大却看不清楚
好孤独
天黑的时候
我又想起那首歌
突然期待
下起安静的雨
原来外婆的道理早就唱给我听
下起雨也要勇敢前进….
我相信一切都会平息
我现在好想回家去
天黑黑欲落雨
天黑黑黑黑...

a song always remind me
to walk out from the past
wipe up my tears...
I am not strong enough =(
grandma and grandpa
I miss u both...
really miss u both...
please guide me
just too much of complexity in this world
and I don't know how to handle it even face it
I just hope that ...
I could escape from those confusion
I don't want it seriously.
just wanna focus on my dream. chase it.
without turning back
or any unnecessary obstacles block my way
giving me alot of confusion thingy
I don't want it. fark that things.
I hate it but I couldn't escape from that.
smile =) be strong catherine !!
fark off that thought!

决心

这天晚上
更增加了我的决心
当初的动摇 在今晚过后
完全消失 决心奔向我的理想
不再为琐事而拖累 尽情享受我的人生
为家人为自己 我的决心 回来了！
再一次站起来了！
感恩今晚的小温馨 力量已逐渐回来
至少清楚了 自己想要的东西
至少了解了 现在不必要的东西
虽然还是会很诱惑 但是我的决心就在此！
不会动摇不会动摇~~
不要就是不要！
steady and calm always =)))

escape

obviously I screwed everything up
better ran out from here.
aiks... time flies everything changed.
totally UPSET.
thats what I wanna say today.
my words for today.

STUPID

I am a stupid. all the time
I act like a stupid
think like a stupid
speak like a stupid
how I wish I could stop being a stupid
how I wish I could stop acting like a stupid
shameful to myself
and I said . no second time
thinking like a stupid
brainless thingy
I should stop the tears rolling in my eyes
I should stop having those stupid thought in my mind
I should chase my dreams
without having any stupid thinking
conclusion is I am really a stupid
cureless
just let the wind blows away everything
let it gone with the wind
let it be let it be
learn to stand from where we fall down
and don't do the same mistake again
when it isn't too late yet
SOBER

Pictures tell the story

thats bell and mee.
no one else. this post is just for us. only 2 of us.
when we were 19...when we were young...we were in KL.
hope you like it =))))

suddenly sooo emo...
IDKW...wth
just leave me alone
duuuuuuuuuu it!
I am begging please.
make my dreams come true.
please. just once.
fullfill my dreams please.

I would sacrifice
the feeling of falling in love
to get what I want
my dreams
PLEASE

我想要有存在感

short update

booooooo !! guess who I met today in guitar class...
hmmm...yea my ex lol
well...no more feeling on him liao...
55 congrazt me wuahahhaha
maybe someone aredy replace him in my heart =/
btw...I still feels like wanna ask people around:
am I looking good today? lol
blaaaaa still so care about the image in front of him...
how to say...just wanna turn to be better, maybe prettier
when stand in front of him for the next time...
but sure is not current...bcoz still feeling myself is sucks lol
though people said I am lookin good but I rasa ditipu lol isn't it?
should have more confidence when meet him next time...
but I did very well this time...at least besides the feeling awkward...
no more sadness or emoness come to me...HAHA gratz
when I met him , the very first thing I did was find pohpoh hahah!
well still thinking should I attend the next guitar weekly classes or not
not becoz of him for sure...is becoz of my lovely bell, pohpoh and cayton
just wanna meet them more since I am so busy on my own things
can't even spend time playing guitar with them.
so I can only play with them in weekly classes. awhhh sad!
missing them

cayton said: next time if I meet my ex again
just said my head is very ichy my head is very ichy
at the same time show him oOo

don't get what I mean? next time show you all XDD
*clapping* for cayton ! such a funky guy XD
this joke brighten my day =)))

如果我变漂亮了，你会喜欢我吗？
quoted from my fren =)